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by slaveboyzero (slaveboyzero)
at March 16th, 2007 (08:53 pm)

current mood: contemplative

Hello evereybody, Zero here also known as slaveboyzero. I got here by entering Lilith into an inetrest search. As to why well that is kind of simple. I have had a deep connection with Lilith ever since i was a child and have had a series of strange events which seem to revolve around here. So I come here seeking to understand her better. Maybe if i can these things will stop being a plague and series of attacks and become more enlightening experinces


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Posted by: slaveboyzero (slaveboyzero)
Posted at: March 19th, 2007 09:13 pm (UTC)

Okay then...you said you would like to here my tales. well they are not exactly tales since they really did happen to me. The thing is I do not know exactly where or when to begin. It all started quite a while ago actually and some of it is quite strange. I don't usually tell them because people don't usually believe me. Especially since although they happen in my dreams there is always some mark or sign that makes them seem like they were real. If you will listen with an open mind I will tell them.

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Posted by: slaveboyzero (slaveboyzero)
Posted at: March 19th, 2007 10:21 pm (UTC)
Re: Info

Very well then my friend. I guess the best place to start is the beginning. I was kind of young when it first started around Eight I think though I can't be sure. My memories of that time period are kind of foggy. Anyways my parents had been fighting as usual and I ended up crying myself to sleep. I don't know how long I had been out when I caught a whiff of Lilies. I know that is what they were because they had always been my favorite flowers.

After that I felt a presence, I do not know how to describe it other than I knew it was feminine and I was terrified. I remember wanting to call out and not being able to find my voice. Then, feeling arms wrap around my and feeling scared and yet strangely comforted. She soothed my with a song which I still cant remember the words of to this day. Once I was calm she kissed my on the forehead leaving a kind of warming sensation then faded away saying that she would find me when the time was write.

I awoke the next day feeling calmer than I had since my mom and dad stated fighting and went down to breakfast. I remember my mom asking where I got the flower and not knowing what she was talking about then reaching in my hair and finding a Lily. I told her I found it. I don't know why since I somehow knew the dream Lady gave it to me. Just something gave me a feeling that it would be bad to tell her.

So there's my first encounter, Take it or leave it I don't care. It really did happen and was the first of many.

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Posted by: slaveboyzero (slaveboyzero)
Posted at: March 23rd, 2007 08:15 pm (UTC)
Re: Info

A blessing, perhaps although I am not so sure about it. In that early case it seemed to be so but things would not always be so nice. It would actually be awhile before another such encounter. Although I always felt like I was being watched over. By the time I was thirteen I had adopted Wicca and gave myself a witch name. I was actually a natural at some spells such as glamors and charms and got a kick out of my ability to have people get things for me. I figured even then that it had something to do with The spirit which had visited me back then.

Anyways I would be visited again when I was fourteen. By this time my home life was in shambles. Both my parents drank a lot and where pretty abusive when they were not ignoring me. Which was most the time. Hell I was actually starting to enjoy the beatings at least then I knew that they knew I existed.

When I fell asleep that night I found myself in the middle of a field. ALthough I had never been to it at this time I recognized it as one which was a couple miles away. It was actually kind of peaceful and I found myself relaxing. I think at one time I actually feel asleep on the wet grass for a bit because when I opened my eyes the sky was that purple shade that it gets to be just before dawn.

I heard someone approaching from across the field and began to get frightened. I tried to find the source of the foot steps but could not see anybody. I remember being thrown to the ground with great force and a sharp pain in the side of my neck.

Just before I blacked out I heard her voice. The same voice as before saying that I was hers and that one day she would call for me.

When I woke up my heart was pounding. My whole body was damp like I had been lying in that dew covered field all night. Although this I could easily knock off to me sweating from the nightmare. It was not till I went to the bathroom and saw the seeping tear in my neck that I new it was real. It looked like somebody had taken I chunk out.

I bandaged it up and made some lie up of cutting myself while shaving. I thought people would think I was nuts if I told them the truth. In fact this is the first time I told this story to anybody. So there it is take it or leave it. Much more happened since then perhaps I will tell more it all depends but this is why I am unsure it is a blessing. Very few of these encounters were sweet as the first one was.

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